yours.

so i'm halfway done with the portrait, and have been since like saturday. i know, i'm being unproductive but i can't help it. it's summer after all, even if it doesn't completely feel like it.
+ my heart has been pumping faster lately for certain reasons.
do you guys have songs you listen to when this happens? i think "so contagious" by acceptance is my favorite song for these kinds of situations.

credits! a la: historyy, bombicons, perfect_company, chataigne, quasi_stellar_radio

if people were rain, i was drizzle and she was huricane.

john green (looking for alaska)

and when i saw genevieve i really liked it when she said
what she said about the giants and the lemmings on the cliff
she said "i really like giants,
especially girl giants,
'cause all girls feel too big sometimes
regardless of their size."

'i like giants' - kimya dawson

we all become important when we realize our goal.

'i like giants' - kimya dawson

i don't need a photograph,
because you've never left my mind.

so if you wanna burn yourself, remember that i love you
and if you wanna cut yourself, remember that i love you
and if you wanna kill yourself, remember that i love you
call me up before you're dead, we can make some plans instead
send me an IM, i'll be your friend.

'loose lips' - kimya dawson

you told me 32 ways to make you smile
and i did 31 within the first hour.

'32 ways to make you smile' - backseat goodbye

i want to tell you with my last breath that i have always loved you.

you make remembering a beautiful thing.

do you ever look at a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background? it makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you, how many moments of other people's life we have been in. were we part of someone's life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died? did we keep trying to get in? as if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise? just think, you could be a big part of someone else's life, and not even know it.

you know what the secret is? it's so simple. we love one another. we're nice to one another. do you know how rare that is?

the sisterhood of the traveling pants

the problem is not the problem. the problem is your attitude about the problem. got that?

the sisterhood of the traveling pants

you're allowed to be mad.

the sisterhood of the traveling pants

what you do speaks so loudly that i cannot hear what you say.

ralph waldo emerson

and now, after being so close to you, i can't be around you and not think about what that feels like.

the sisterhood of the traveling pants

i didn't know what to do
so i grabbed your cold hand,
pressed it to my beating heart
and said, "isn't it neat how our bodies tick?
and we can move our feet whenever and however we please?"

'32 ways to make you smile' - backseat goodbye

it's not much, but it's enough
i've got my scrabble game, food on my plate, good friends and family
and now there's you understanding why i do the things i do
knowing that you do them too makes me really happy

'my rollercoaster' - kimya dawson

you were on my mind at least nine tenths of yesterday
it seemed as if perhaps I'd gone insane
what is it about you that has commandeered my brain?
maybe it's your awesome songs or maybe it's the way
you go straight to the top you're not scared of getting squashed
you know just when to jump off
you're so brave

'my rollercoaster' - kimya dawson

good evening everyone! today has been quite fulfilling. i finished sophie's world, went to yoga - which i am liking more and more by the minute, anddd....well, i've yet to start on that painting. sigh.

credits! a la: chataigne

tell me; where's your best friend?
jackie's in beacon, new york. hannah's in cedarburg, wisconsin. vaishnavi's at andover. soyeon's in singapore. sharon's in korea. damini's in bombay. mizuha in kanagawa, alex in kentucky or detroit. wow.

'cause i need you
like the dragonflies' wings need the wind
like the orphan needs home once again
like heaven needs more to come in
i need you here like you've always been

'priceless (for eleanor)' - copeland

do what you want
but i know who you are
say what you want
but i know what you're thinking
go where you want
but i won't be too far
go where you want
and i know where you'll end up

'hold nothing back' - copeland

she changes your mind
when you see the joy in her eyes
it makes you feel.
she draws your eyes
from all the things that made you numb
it makes you feel.

'she changes your mind' - copeland

my words don't travel far. they tangle in my hair and tend to go nowhere.

if you fall in love,
fall in love and hold nothing back
i'll fall in love,
fall in love and hold nothing back
from you.

'hold nothing back' - copeland

i love you.
and here i am standing in your doorway.
i've always been standing in your doorway.

and i'll sing a song
and i hope you're listening carefully
and know exactly what i mean.

'she changes your mind' - copeland

we're forever.

good evening!
i just started a portrait of vaishnavi. the medium is acrylic on matteboard. i've gridded so far, and i'm ALMOST done with the contour line (basically a artsy fartsy way of saying an outline). i hope i didn't draw it too darkly in pencil. i'm excited, but i hope i don't mess up the eyes because i always have trouble with them - i spent an hour trying to get them right - and, ugh skin color...wish me luck! maybe if it goes well it'll be vaishnavi's surprise birthday present. 
oh, & i found tons of these "the wonder years" quotes; enjoy!

in 7th grade, who you are is what other 7th graders say you are. the funny thing is it's hard to remember the names of kids you spent so much time trying to impress.

the wonder years

i was thirteen years old. being self conscious was a full time job.

the wonder years

you give me the kind of feeling people write novels about.

That night of my sister's 18th birthday, a lot of things happened. Maybe more than she knew. Because that night, when my father let Karen go out, he let Karen go. Maybe that's how it had to be. Children leave. And parents stay behind. Still, some things are deeper than time and distance, and your father will always be your father. And he will always leave a light on for you.

the wonder years

our lives were made up of little moments, all delicately intertwined.

the wonder years

in junior high school image is everything. a dance with masks. a fight to fit in. maybe it's a struggle that lasts a lifetime. for most of us, anyway.

the wonder years

i wish someone would tell me something incredibly profound.

What about little microphones? What if everyone swallowed them, and they played the sounds of our hearts through little speakers, which could be in the pouches of our overalls? When you skateboarded down the street at night you could hear everyone’s heartbeat, and they could hear yours, sort of like sonar. One weird thing is, I wonder if everyone’s hearts would start to beat at the same time, like how women who live together have their menstrual periods at the same time, which I know about, but don’t really want to know about. That would be so weird, except that the place in the hospital where babies are born would sound like a crystal chandelier in a houseboat, because the babies wouldn’t have had time to match up their heartbeats yet. And at the finish line at the end of the New York City Marathon it would sound like war.

if there's one thing every kid needs growing up, it's a best friend. someone you trust. someone who trusts you. someone you measure yourself against. you go through everything together. important things. stupid things. things that matter. things that don't.

the wonder years

all my life i always wanted to be somebody. now i see that i should have been more specific.

jane wagner

i'm not going to tell the story it happened.
i'm going to tell it the way i remember it.

i have music, and that makes me happy.

beethoven virus (a korean drama)

for the adventure of being alive

credits! chataigne, quiet_allure
quiet_allure has fantastic quotes. i highly recommend taking a visit there.
today i met up with my friend ava, had some really good chicken pad thai @ thai express, and got a surprise call from nikita. she's going to india, and she was here for a transit flight. :)
and you know, i'm starting to feel that my summer's really quite unproductive. i should probably do some art.

i like your christ. i do not like your christians. your christians are so unlike your christ.

mohandas ghandi

live to the point of tears.

albert camus

you must live in the present, launch yourself on every wave, find your eternity in each moment. fools stand on their island of opportunities and look toward another land.
there is no other land; there is no other life but this.

henry david thoreau

if i could reach up and hold a star for every time you made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hands.

1.) get started.
2.) keep going.

somebody loves you, and you're going to make it through.

eels

when we come to the edge of all the light we know, and are about to step off into the darkness of the unknown, we must believe that one of two things will happen: there will be something to stand on, or we will be taught how to fly.

patrick overton

in your life, you meet people. some you never think about again. some you wonder what happened to them. there are some that you wonder if they ever think of you. and then there are some you wish you never had to think about again, but you do.

the wonder years

it doesn't interest me what you do for a living
i want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing
it doesn't interest me how old you are
i want to know if you will risk
looking like a fool for love,
for your dreams,
for the adventure of being alive.

the invitation

one day i will find the right words
and they will be simple.

jack kerouac

enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things.

robert brault

you just have to go forward.

life is terribly great. awfully good. i am really appreciating the gray areas right now. the shades of light and dark. how complexity can equal beauty, how simplicity can be intolerable, how everything is just as it should or shouldn't be.

i have hope and the sky and that's pretty much it.

i'm here, hey.

guess what, 9 more subscribers until 300! :)

nikita is coming on july 22nd and is here until july 30th! i'm incredibly psyched.

when i hear beautiful music, it's always from another time. old friends i never visit, i remember what they're like. standing on a doorstep full of butterflies, waiting to be asked to come inside, just come inside.

mostly i'm tired of people being ugly to each other.

- green mile

and every second is electric like a thousand volts
not to mention, my intention's only natural
and your affection is the question.

we're never gonna win the world
we're never gonna stop this war
we're never gonna beat this
if belief is what we're fighting for.
what puts a hundred thousand children in the sand?
belief can, belief can.
what puts a folded flag in his mother's hands?
belief can, belief can.

'belief' - john mayer

it's better to say too much
than never to say what you need to say again.

'say' - john mayer

our love was comfortable
and so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
i'm not impressed.
i want you back.

'comfortable' - john mayer

i planned to say all these terrible things to you,
but in the end i just want to tell you i miss you.